Another birthday has come and gone, and I am OK with that. I didn’t feel like celebrating or doing anything major for the 31st. I just felt like letting it go by un-noticed and without much fanfare.
Usually, I am one who loves to celebrate my birthday and in the past I have never let a November go by without declaring it my birthday month.
But, not this year. November is just slipping by.
I am just getting tired of having another year go by and nothing in the fertility world to show for it, other than lots of injections and heartbreak.
I spent my birthday morning getting my blood drawn for my second beta, and it wasn’t the results I had hoped to see. It has dropped a little. The nurse tried to be positive and explained that this could be because both embryos had originally planted and we are now loosing one, but I am not so optimistic. I am hoping that at least one of my little embies is trying to grow, but right now it is hard to be happy. A decrease is a decrease and in my mind that can never lead to something good. I go back in tomorrow to see what it actually going on. Praying for something positive.
I hope that next year I have a real reason to celebrate my day of birth.