Not The Way It Was supposed To Go

I find myself in the same situation that I have been in before.

My pregnancy made it just past 7 1/2 weeks, but then stopped growing.

I feel broken, numb, and in a state of shock. I really thought this time was going to be different. I’ve been feeling the twinges and small symptoms that go along with pregnancy and I was holding onto hope so tightly.

 Around 6 weeks we saw a healthy heartbeat. I went on my way thinking that this time was going to work. That I have been through my trials with infertility and that I was finally being granted my healthy pregnancy, because there was no way that this could happen to me a sixth time.

But, it did happen again.

Before the ultrasound I told my hubby that for the first time I felt calm and I felt that we may finally have the baby we have prayed so hard for. But, as soon as I saw the screen and the dates that our baby was measuring I knew that things were not going my way. When you’ve seen enough ultrasounds go wrong you know what to look for and my tears started rolling down.

XO