Last week the hubby and I found ourselves back on a couch at ORM talking about getting started with IVF, again. It felt strange and disheartening to be back on the white couches again. To be sitting across from my seventh doctor talking about my chances of having a child through IVF. This time around I met… Continue reading IVF 2 Consult
I didn’t have high hopes going into my discussion with Dr. B. In my heart I knew that we wouldn’t undercover the reason for my recurrent pregnancy loss and I knew that he wouldn’t have any sage advice as to where I should go from here. I had secret hope that I was wrong, but… Continue reading Discussion with Dr.B
I find myself in the same situation that I have been in before. My pregnancy made it just past 7 1/2 weeks, but then stopped growing. I feel broken, numb, and in a state of shock. I really thought this time was going to be different. I’ve been feeling the twinges and small symptoms that… Continue reading Not The Way It Was supposed To Go
That baby S is right on track. I am so relieved to have this hurdle over with. I know I am not out of the woods yet, but I am choosing to celebrate the small steps in this pregnancy. It is hard to do at times, but everyday I will put in the effort to… Continue reading And the ultrasound revealed…..
Yesterday was my beta day. And, it was positive. All I can think is….. here I go again. I am relieved that my body is giving me another chance at this. Before this morning I had convinced myself that I would be ok if I got a negative, because that would be better than going… Continue reading sixth time preggers
This is the big question that so many of us in the IVF world have to ask ourselves. How many embryos should we transfer? It’s not always a simple answer, and as my FET is approaching I need to hurry up and decide. With our first transfer the decision was out of our hands as… Continue reading How many embryos to transfer?
I’ve been staring at my computer screen for the past hour trying to figure out how to put into words what I am feeling about my upcoming FET, but I can’t. It seems fitting that the screen has been blank, because that is exactly how I feel about my upcoming transfer…..I don’t really feel anything.… Continue reading Finding My Emotions