That baby S is right on track.
I am so relieved to have this hurdle over with. I know I am not out of the woods yet, but I am choosing to celebrate the small steps in this pregnancy. It is hard to do at times, but everyday I will put in the effort to remain optimistic.
This morning I felt sick to my stomach going into my appointment. I’ll admit I had a sour attitude that nothing has worked for me in the past, so why would today be any different….luckily I was proven wrong. I am so thankful that I get to be pregnant another day and I pray that this pregnancy lasts another 35 weeks.
The past week has been BETA HELL for me and I would never wish that upon anyone. It was pure torture.
The one think I have learned during this torturous wait is that early betas are horrible. All they do is cause undo stress and anxiety for everything that could go wrong. Sometimes ignorance can be such bliss, and looking back I wish I didn’t get my first beta drawn so quickly. Then we wouldn’t have known that there was a decrease in HCG levels. It would just have looked like a slow riser and almost doubler. But, that wasn’t the case. The things we learn.
I told the nurse that I don’t want to know my beta results today as I would just like to wait until my next ultrasound. I don’t think I could handle another week of what if. I am curious as to what my progesterone level is as I no longer feel the symptoms that I felt a few weeks ago. When my clinic added the endometrin they lowered my PIO and I hope that my levels are still on track.
While I am choosing to celebrate the small steps I also know that I am not in the clear yet. I have had good ultrasounds this early on before that went on to not succeed. So, I am cautiously optimistic.
I am so blessed to have so much support from everyone in my real life and from you ladies as well.
“Once you choose hope, anything is possible.” – Christopher Reeve