You guys, I’ve gone and done it. I’ve shared my first ever post on Facebook regarding my infertility. My hands are still shaking and my heart feels like it may jump out of my chest. But, it also feels so liberating. I didn’t wake up this morning with the intention of sharing personal information, but… Continue reading Sharing my story
Honestly…..I don’t know. I’ve been trying to find the words to explain what I have been feeling these past few weeks and I can’t find the right word to describe what is going on inside my mind. The only word that comes to mind is BLANK. I feel blank. I know blank isn’t an adjective… Continue reading How Do I feel?
I find myself in the same situation that I have been in before. My pregnancy made it just past 7 1/2 weeks, but then stopped growing. I feel broken, numb, and in a state of shock. I really thought this time was going to be different. I’ve been feeling the twinges and small symptoms that… Continue reading Not The Way It Was supposed To Go
Today marks my 4th beta draw and I still have no idea what is going on. 9dp6dt: Beta 400 12dp6dt: Beta 380 14dp6dt: Beta 490 16dp6dt: Beta 890 I have to go back in Monday for another appointment to talk to my doctor and do some more blood work. At this point I am not… Continue reading My Wonky HCG levels
Monday was harder on me than I thought. I didn’t get all the answers that I was looking for and CCRM was not the magical place that I thought it would be. I thought I would walk through the double doors to the clinic and be greeted by answers….lot’s of answers, but nope. Our initial… Continue reading Second Opinion Fail
Today I had my WTF appointment with my fertility doctor, Dr. B. I left the appointment just as confused and frustrated as when I went in. I walked into the appointment with some hope that there would be a simple answer as to why my pregnancies aren’t lasting and why 3 out of 5 have ended at the… Continue reading My WTF Appointment
This week was the end of my fifth pregnancy. I had to say goodbye to all of my hopes of having a successful pregnancy and I had to accept that it was over for me. If you have ever been in my shoes and have so un-patiently waited for the follow up ultrasound from such… Continue reading The Fifth loss