Last week the hubby and I found ourselves back on a couch at ORM talking about getting started with IVF, again. It felt strange and disheartening to be back on the white couches again. To be sitting across from my seventh doctor talking about my chances of having a child through IVF. This time around I met… Continue reading IVF 2 Consult
This year for National Infertilty Awarness Week the theme is Start Asking. What do we want others to ask us regarding our personal journies with infertility or for me, repeat pregnancy loss. Last week when I finally decided to put something on Facebook regarding my struggles with infertility I got the same response, I don’t… Continue reading Start Asking
After waiting patiently for the phone call and having to reschedule it, I was able to talk with Dr.Kwak-Kim regarding my results. I was hoping to get some real answers or to have a clear path to follow, but that didn’t happen. No major breakthroughs were found as to why my pregnancies don’t last. A large… Continue reading Results From Dr. Kwak-Kim
You guys, I’ve gone and done it. I’ve shared my first ever post on Facebook regarding my infertility. My hands are still shaking and my heart feels like it may jump out of my chest. But, it also feels so liberating. I didn’t wake up this morning with the intention of sharing personal information, but… Continue reading Sharing my story
I did’t mean to take this long to update you all on my trip to Chicago or to stay off the blog world, but it happened. I would attempt to write and update, but just couldn’t seem to organize my thoughts. Here is my attempt at organizing my thoughts and feelings on the appointment. When… Continue reading Appointment with Dr.Kwak-Kim
Infertility generates pain and it’s pretty unavoidable. I try to disguise my pain with a smile or pretend that it’s not there, but it is always there. It’s constantly there. It is constantly there, because….. Each month that goes by and i’m not pregnant is painful. Every pregnancy that ends suddenly is painful. Every question that I have to dodge… Continue reading Suffering is optional
When I first realized that keeping a pregnancy wasn’t going to be easy for me I felt defeated. I didn’t know where to go or what I needed to do. All I knew was that my current OBGYN wasn’t getting the job done. Yes, she was a good OBGYN and I really enjoyed her, but… Continue reading finding the right doctor
Last month I told myself that I would take the 31 days off from stressing about infertility, from talking about it on a daily basis, and I would enjoy as much wine as I could before IVF take 2. I wanted a month to myself and to not be constantly bombarded with thoughts and stresses of infertility.… Continue reading Constant Reminders
I didn’t have high hopes going into my discussion with Dr. B. In my heart I knew that we wouldn’t undercover the reason for my recurrent pregnancy loss and I knew that he wouldn’t have any sage advice as to where I should go from here. I had secret hope that I was wrong, but… Continue reading Discussion with Dr.B
This decision-making stuff is hard. It’s times like these that I realize I really am an adult and I can’t run and hide from my problems. I have to face them head on, even if I don’t want to. Especially when the problem is as big and scary as infertility and repeated pregnancy loss. Especially… Continue reading Death by Decisions
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